I’ve made mistakes in my life. I’ve operated out of pain patterns and caused pain. That’s the ripple. What we feel on the inside ripples out.
It wasn’t until I experienced the loop of my own decisions that I shifted. I dug deep to understand myself and excavate my treasures of love — what I was born as but had been covering with mounds of pain.
I gave myself time. I trusted my rediscovery and used my tools to build anew. I became aware. I sought forgiveness. I forgave. I trusted.
I stopped protecting with projection and allowed myself to just be.
It took me a long time to fully love myself and know how and when to elevate myself out of circumstances that no longer served my highest vibrancy.
And it was this magical boy that motivated me to become whole and experience the simplicity of joy. It was through loving Landon and protecting him that I grew to love myself.
And to do that I needed help. The day I decided to seek help was the day I changed my life.
While I do many brave things on the norm, the bravest thing I have ever done was admit I felt broken and ask for help. From that day on, everything shifted. What a miracle!
I’ve become more discerning about what energy I choose to ripple out. The more I loved and accepted myself, the more loving and compassionate I was with others.
I am still a work in progress and my old wounds get triggered every once in a while. But I move through lessons quicker and that’s growth.
I share this because I know there are people walking around wounded with inner pain directing decisions. There are people feeling unworthy. There are people feeling unloved.
If this resonates with you, perhaps the gift to give this holiday season is the gift of self-love by way of healing a lingering wound. Perhaps 2020 is the year for you to dissolve pain patterns and rediscover your natural treasures of love.
Inner love is the priceless gift that keeps giving and ripples out in effortless ways to our children, our family and friends, our community, and our world.
You are worthy.
You are love.